Tuesday, January 29, 2013

A Weekly Writing Challenge: 1,000 words



Photo: Cheri Lucas

Here is my story inspired by this photo, found at 
I hope you enjoy it!

Late for work again. Would I never learn time management, or was I doomed to forever spend my life running from place to place anxious, and harassed by my watch? That Friday morning I skipped out my front door onto the tiny Portuguese street where I lived and, even after four months here in Lisbon, I teetered until I found my balance on the steep incline of the hill. I checked down toward the bottom of that same said hill looking for the tiny street car that ran the length of my street.
Even though I ran perpetually late, I still marveled at my location whenever I stepped from my tiny apartment. This morning was no exception, in fact, I paused even longer than usual because not only was the street car approaching my stop, but a young couple embraced each other on the cobbled steps of the sidewalk not fifteen feet from where I stood. On the far side of the tracks a group of tourists, having just descended from the street car and looking decidedly American, like me but not, ambled as if unsure exactly of where to go. They had no real time schedule to worry about. Neither, evidently did the young couple.
The street car clanged a warning before resuming its daily climb up the hill. It lurched its way toward me as my eyes lingered on the young couple now talking to each other as their eyes remained locked. The street car stopped and I climbed, reluctantly, on board. I sat toward the back so I could watch them until we climbed too high to see them. I didn’t feel like the voyeur that I was. I felt instead a profound loneliness. I loved my work. Here in Portugal I helped small businesses get back on their feet during these recession-torn times, and I did truly love seeing the look on a proprietors face when he realized he would, with a bit of refinancing, which my company afforded, be able to keep his family restaurant open, or his family’s garage without owing interest unto his unborn great grand children. Helping people had been my goal since high school and I’d spent long hours volunteering through high school and college as well. Which had helped me land this job.
So to see that young couple deeply entranced with one another touched a part of my spirit that I’d denied. I realized I’d done the typical, forsaken human relations for work success. The young couple had me questioning if what I’d done was still necessary.
At work I made it through five appointments, got three new loans in motion, and closed out two. By any calculation a successful day and my boss would be happy. But I left the office ready to go home and mope. The young couple on the sidewalk had stayed in the back of my mind all day and I dragged my feet toward the street car stop. I checked my watch. I’d left the office late, of course, tidying up so on Monday when I came back to work I’d start with a clean slate. My shoulders slumped. I had a television in my apartment. I had food and wine. I had a hot shower waiting for me, but no person to ask me about my day: no one with whom to discuss how to spend the weekend. In the four months I’d been here I’d taken many weekend trips to anywhere close. Now the novelty of traveling had passed and I wished for someone to talk to instead.
The familiar clang of the street car sounded and I roused myself to board as it pulled to a halt in front of me. I barely heard shouting from within the street car before I found myself flat on the sidewalk, a hulking mass of man on top of me struggling to get up and away. “DetĂȘ-lo! Ele roubou minha bolsa!” I heard a woman yell her purse had been stolen. I grabbed the edge of the man’s coat as he pushed himself away and I hung on for all I was worth. The thief struggled to get to his feet, staggered almost losing his balance as my weight inhibited his escape. I still lay prone on the hard cobblestones when a large hand reached past mine and grabbed the man’s coat farther up. Within seconds the thief lay on his face. A man in a black uniform jumped over me to sit on him, pinning his arms behind his back.
Someone helped me to my feet and clucked over me and my bravery. Someone else picked up my purse and handed it back to me. It had fallen during the scuffle. The policeman cuffed the thief and pulled him to his feet where he glared at me and then started cussing until the policeman shut him up. Disorientated, I stared at the scene. Everyone had gathered round from the street car. The driver shouted at the policeman what had happened, then shouted that he needed to get moving or he’d be late. I started to giggle, and then rolled into full fledged laughter. The driver was worried about being late and I wasn’t! My tardiness this evening had made me a hero. I laughed at the irony of it. Another policeman drove up, parked behind the street car on the tracks, and the two of them stuffed the criminal into the back of the car.
The first cop walked back to me and asked, “Senhora, posso perguntar-lhe algumas perguntas??” Could he ask me some questions? I gazed into earthy-brown eyes, polite as they were deep. His smile warmed me, told me that here was my true reward for my habitual delay, that maybe, just maybe, this weekend I’d travel on a voyage of a different kind, and I wouldn’t be alone.

I smiled. “Claro, Sr. Policial. O que vocĂȘ gostaria de saber?Of course, Mr. Policeman. What would you like to know?   


 
Photo from:

Tuesday, January 08, 2013

First Post of the New Year 2013



 

I didn’t write on this blog over the holidays because of two reasons.
1. I wanted a real vacation from writing and being stuck in my head. 
2.  is complicated and is the reason for this post.

I love Christmas songs/carols. They always brighten the festive feel of the time of year and help when stress tries to worm its way into my brain and take precedence.  But this past Christmas something was different. Beginning near the end of November I realized that the songs weren’t hitting the mark they way they usually did for me. This time the songs weren’t working, especially when I heard John Lennon’s “And So This is Christmas.” Usually I love this song, I know all the words, I always sing along and imagine that we really don’t WANT war anymore. But every time I heard it this past season I just got mad. I couldn’t understand why, at first. Why I wasn’t rejoicing in the season—and remember, this was before the Newtown tragedy (which only made me feel worse)—until I thought about what those songs/carols were about.
Why do we play these songs on the radio when we so clearly aren’t striving for these kinds of tragedies “to be over?” War still marches on, all over our planet in all kinds of guises. People still kill one another for whatever reason they believe is justifiable. Religion seems to be part of the problem (think “holy wars or crusades” and “If you’re not with us, you’re against us”), but not all of it. No, to over simplify (maybe, but it IS a HUGE reason), Greed is the reason. Greed to have whatever it is “us”/“they” think we/they need/want/deserve.
I felt the tragedy of broken dreams in this past holiday more clearly than the joy: the hypocrisy of it, the lie of it, the lip service that we won’t put action to.
Don’t get me wrong, I loved spending time with my family and loved ones. That is always a blessing to me no matter what. But this season I became aware of how lucky I was to have the money to drive to see them, buy them presents, and drink to their health and longevity. How lucky I am to have a life that is good and, in these days, plentiful in the sense that I’m not living in a war zone or starving, or enduring a horrible tragedy. To this day I grieve for those who lost a part or parts of themselves in Newtown. I know they will grieve forever. Christmas will never be the same for them again. For me either, but in a different way. My head is out of the preverbal sand. I can’t pretend anymore when I hear Christmas songs that next year everyone might “see the light.” I’m sorry to have lost my “innocent” wonder of, and joy in, those lovely songs and carols, and their meanings, but I’m even sorrier for the reasons behind that loss.
Am I depressed about this? Yes and no. I still have my life to live, as do we all. My resolution then, for 2013, is not about losing weight or being a better person or getting another book published (well those are in there too). But those resolutions now come after my first goal, which is to remember “More is not always Better,” and to be compassionate, to judge less and to help those in need around me, to send what I can to charities I know do the good works that John Lennon sings about in his song, and to remember that “my world” is not the only “world” on this planet. I need to remember, we ALL need to remember that others lives and customs are different from ours and we shouldn’t make decisions for them without knowing what those lives and customs are. In other words, “Judge not another person until you walk a mile in their shoes.” Maybe by December of this year I’ll listen to my favorite Christmas songs and carols and once again feel their magic. Maybe, but I’m not going to hold my breath.

Images from: